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Feb. 9th, 2019 12:31 pmThere is a voice in Shouta's head. It is warm, but sad. Shouta does not like it. It makes static buzz in his head, makes his body move. He tries to fight it, but the warmth and static take over, push him back.
How long has it been since the voice showed up? Pain goes through his head every time he tries to remember. He leaves it alone. Occasionally a memory stirs. Of loud voices, tall hair and strangely, explosions. It makes his heart ache. He tries not to think about it.
Open the door, the voice says and he can feel his body move, pull the door open. They step through. He closes it shut behind him and goes to wait by the stairs. He does not need the command; they have done this so many times before.
A flash of purple appears in his vision. Comes towards him with a smile. Something twists at the sight. The warmth pushes it down.
His master takes his hand. Leads him up the stairs. Suddenly, he's tired. His head drops onto his master's shoulder. He can feel his eyes slide shut.
His master laughs. A hand comes up to run through his hair. Then, he's being shifted, lowered.
The bed creaks beneath him. A stab of sharpness cuts through the warmth. He feels panic, briefly, before he sinks back under it. His master's hand slips out of his and he makes a noise.
"Be calm"
The words are said aloud this time. A rare treat. He must have been good tonight. His master steps away, locks the door, comes back.
Shouta leans against him. Sighs. His eyes close. His master's hand pets his hair.
There is a snapping sound, the feeling of cold air as his master leans away, then a clank. His master comes back and Shouta can feel the warmth of his neck. He nuzzles in.
Something dark and angry tries to bubble up. He pushes it away. He feels like that about his master sometimes, but he doesn't want to feel that way tonight. Tonight has been one of the better nights when his master and his friends had been kind. He hopes it lasts.
Sleep tugs at him again and he slumps further. His master chuckles, pushes him back so that he's lying on the bed. He hopes he doesn't have to participate much for whatever his master had planned. He had woken up once with lightning running through his veins and shuddering with each pulse of liquid that spilled out of him. That had been a good week.
The dark, angry feeling throbbed at the memory. He sighed, shifted around until his head was lying on his master's lap. His master laughed again.
Sleep, the voice said. He struggled briefly before slipping under. The warmth soaked into him, filled him until there were no more thoughts.